it isnt supposed to be like this at all...

It really isnt. you are not supposed to come across such things in a book. fiction is always there to let you escape from the world around you. im not saying it should be all positive and all flowery, but it should not have a part that destroys your happiness for a hour, a day or a week. it just does not fit in with the context of a book. the book can then have a happy ending but it is just not justified. you read something and you wonder, how can it EVER turn out ok after this? how does this fit in and why was this needed?

its like lion king. i never understood why it had such a heart wrenching sequence. Simba looking down as Mufasa had been killed by the stampede *or Scar*. Sodomizing a 12 year old servant boy? what sense does this make? who told someone this was a good book? its been some 60 odd pages and how can it come out right?

i write things. at times they have a depressing pessimistic tone. at times they mean to find their way to your insides and create some havoc there. theyre never meant to feel like this. the book should be rated R for extreme violence. i doubt if ill get over it very soon.

i have the book in my bag and have to leave the city for a day. i know ill read there and i know ill be alone. Escalation of commitment dictates that i have to read the book. i hope the writer stop using negative emotions as a marketing tool.